damnit i feel like shit
i am a fool, a total fucking fool and i can’t control my heart
if i’m not careful i’ll fall in love again and every time that ever happens i end up feeling worse than i did before
apparently my main character in my last work is a horrible person and a loser and an asshole and hypocritical, immature, emotionally stunted, potentially also a control freak and totally unreliable, and an emotional ignoramus, a sad bastard, with no emotional perception what so ever, prejudices, false reasoning, and emotional retardedness…
oh yeah and he’s a know it all about cheap food (/me giggles and recommends…)
oh fuck feeling like shit
i actually find it kinda hilarious
oh fuck it i shouldn’t take it seriously.
ah fuck them all, that is what a real asshole would say.
well he never hit a girl, he never shouted, he never tried to hurt anyone he cared about, he never fucked over anyone who didn’t have it coming to them, and he did care
i’m impressed by the analysis anyways
i should prolly find that ak and shoot myself in the head now, save me alot of pain
oh well.
i should prolly just drop out now and save myself the bother, i don’t need another broken heart and i can’t handle much more pain
after a brief discussion with a mate i figured out that the above character as described by my class would say “fuck you your wrong suck my balls”, followed by taking the money and going to the bahama’s and never coming back, and imagining what he would say to my class kinda makes me giggle ever so slightly.
so i guess that made me feel a little better
i guess if i wasn’t crying i’d be laughing so oh well
i guess i need to learn to take criticism better, analyse it and improve what i need to improve.
